Anonymous asked: Ryan doesn't deserve you. you could do so much better. he obviously isn't making you happy if you feel this bad about yourself and your situation.
Ryan means more to me than anyone could even understand. He’s helped me out of the most toxic relationship in my entire life, where I literally hated myself to the point that I thought I was completely worthless and had nothing to live for. He makes me love myself everyday. Even on days when I hate myself, he makes me feel good about myself. This is the first time in the last eight months that I’ve felt like this. Before then, when I wasn’t talking to him, I was in a constant state of toxicity. I was constantly tearing myself down. I had toxic friendships. I was in a toxic relationship. And since he came into my life, my entire life has changed.
I know that I shouldn’t feel this bad about everything going on, but that has nothing to do with him. He’s amazing. He does everything he can to make me happy and to make sure that I’m ok. I’d be completely lost without him. I don’t know how I lived without him to begin with. He makes my life worth living, to be honest.
It’s quite interesting when you like someone, you start to notice that everything about them seems more attractive when it seems normal to everyone else. Their smile seems so much brighter. The sound of their voice is more soothing. Their goofy laugh sounds much cuter. Every little thing about them just reels you in. It’s like their imperfections don’t seem bad at all. It’s funny how our view of someone depends on how we feel about them.